Nothing unusual happened today to make me feel down. But I’m going to be honest about my search for that lost joy. My relationship status was seriously hurt by my lack of faith and it’s going to take some effort on my part to get strong again.
Not that God loved me any differently— His love is unconditional. I know that, but I felt He could have fixed things and I’d have suffered less. And He COULD have.
My aHa! moment—-
aHA! I had read it in that dusty book laying on the shelf!
1 Peter 5:8 “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.”
And my Heavenly Father had told me already to put on full armor to protect myself. (see Ephesians 6:12-18)
But I was not wearing my armor when the world fell apart around me. The Word of Truth had lay on the bookshelf gathering dust while I fought court cases. There they don’t allow church and state to coexist. I’d forgotten I had a Sword of the Spirit to guide me. I was not wearing the Breastplate of Righteousness when they told lies about me. I was not wearing the Gospel of Peace on my feet to help me stand against the onslaught. I dropped my Shield of Faith when I fell to the floor in agony when I lost my loved one. My Helmet of Salvation is my only saving grace in this past battle.
But there will be another one. –Have I learned what my God has tried to teach me? I’m sad. I need to study much, much more about God’s armor to ready myself.
Also, as planned:
I have listened to some awesome Christian tunes today while driving. I put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness, as instructed in Isaiah 61:3.
I found again one of my all time favorite scriptures in my promise book:
“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23
Prayed as planned too. Seriously!
Be blessed– and safe. Happy Independence Day.