I remember at some point in my early spiritual learning years (and they never end) I had thought that dying with unconfessed sin meant that I had to be in an attitude of prayer every minute 24/7. Otherwise that slip of the tongue I uttered when I hit the truck head on because I’d been texting and driving would put me in hell. Course, it wouldn’t have been texting back then, nor even talking on my cell phone – but you get the gist.
Recently I have been so angry all the time that I feel it is disrespectful to enter God’s presence or even enter the church building with my attitude. I’ve never even for a second questioned His authority or His sovereignty. But there are just times I’d like to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I know the Lord says to forgive my enemy but right now I think we’re just lucky I’m not the violent type. (Does slamming doors contradict that statement?) People who are so narcissistic that it doesn’t matter who is harmed in their endeavor to “be right” would not be a great loss to society, in my opinion.– Look, I did admit to feeling unworthy to be in His presence. Don’t be shocked.
I do need to bring my emotions under the submission of God’s commands and find a way to forgive. This anger is not conducive to getting back into a worshiping frame of mind.
Easter is amazing. How more blessed could we be than to have a God willing to send, to an undeserving people, His Son who was perfect and worthy enough that He met the sin absolution requirements just once, and for all people, and for all time. We’ve already been forgiven if we’ve accepted Jesus as our Savior.
But confession is good for the soul. Wherever we meet our God to thank Him for the blood of Jesus that covers our sin, it should probably be done often enough that the sin does not have time to harden our hearts. And even if my infant understanding of the every minute 24/7 attitude of prayer for forgiveness was too literal, the concept of an attitude of prayer cannot be overrated.
Whew! Thanks to everyone who listened today. It might just have been bad cholesterol build up, but I could feel a serious heart attack of the hardening type coming on!
God bless you and Happy Easter.